Narrator's Narrator

~sou tashika ni... even the queen gets lonely too...~

When I was in primary school, my classmates said I walk like a robot. My teachers commented that I write like a robot. When I entered secondary school, my friends told me I talk like a robot. My school-mates even said I look like a robot.

Lol. Being robotic wasn't my idea but it wasn't that bad after all.

At least I made less mistakes.

And because I am feeling extremely honest tonight, I'll talk about something special.

"If I talk about something I know, I bore myself; if I talk about something you know, I bore you. So I'll talk about something I don't know." - plagiarised =P

To be very, very frank. I am a very 'kiasu' person.

And not just 'kiasu', I am basically afraid of everything in this world (including public speaking). It's just that I somehow managed to disguise myself for the past 10 years. Sounds very tiring isn't it?

Do I tell lies?

So sorry to say yes, I always do. I'll leave it for you to guess which was a lie and which was the truth. You will never get the real answer from me, so... good luck in your guesses!

But truth about the truth is, I myself don't really know if they are lies either.

I always feel that I am sincere, but am I really???

Truth hurts. I know. But I like the truth.

I feel that I lead a happy life - perfect family, healthy hobbies, decent appearance, faithful friends, stable economic status, fairly good academics... ... I feel satisfied with everything I have. Honest.

But why am I still struggling for perfection in spite of the fact that I have enough?? Or am I actually still not satisfied with my current condition?? I know I sound greedy now. And you don't have to tell me that nothing comes in perfection, because I already know.

Why do I find it so important to please other people??

Maybe I am borned that way? Or perhaps I am just 'afraid' of the consequences??

There are too many questions marks it is not heavenly possible for me to find out in such a short time. I guess I just know myself too well I eventually became confused. But deep in my heart, I understand that these questions require no answers. It's just that I couldn't help thinking.

What I wrote above might sound really pathetic but it's none of your business so quit judging me.

Lol. Sorry, I'm exhibiting my alter ego today. Now you get the mean side of me. I was so stressed up for the pass few weeks and now I seriously need a punchbag to relieve my stress. Don't get too close to me or I'll beat you up to a pulp. Trust me, I learned karate moves from my big sista. You'll get hurt.


Hahahahaha, what the heck am I talking about???