Forbidden

All of the sudden I feel so lifeless. It's like I lose the grip.

Muffins anyone?

End result of Poster Colour + Soy Sauce + Oyster Sauce + Flour

And I'm seriously not happy today. All thanks to mid-term.

I got 45/50 for Management, which I thought was an OK paper. And it's actually highest in class (once again, I was the one distributing the papers and *erhek erhek...* peeping at people's mark *erhek...*) so I have in fact, nothing to complain about.

But surprisingly, I managed to score 46/50 for Marketing paper which I was less confident in. To tell the truth, I had really low expectancy on it. It trully shocked me when I got back my paper because I was last to receive it. Our lecturer/tutor, Ms. Ngo was like: "If you people think you want extra marks, compare your answers to hers". Tzia and the rest immediately felt pissed because I was grumbling about how hard the paper was earlier lol. Ms. Ngo also added that the whole stream did quite badly for the mid-term...

I'm done for it lah. Nobody's gonna trust me anymore. But let's be fair... I dunno my answers are correct weihh...

Then the turn of event happened when I received paper for Web Page Design.

42/50.

Pause. It's actually not that bad, but note that I got 1 mark deducted voluntarily because (according to Vitagen) I'm so stewpit-ly honest with the mistakes I made. Oh well, Joshu said "honesty is the best policy". I'll make myself look noble by sacrificing a little lor.

But what's behind all this? Sebenarnya, I was dead-confident with the 'pepper'. I thought I could get something like... 47 or 48, or maybe even 50 lol. Super ambitious I know. It's not that I'm so unhappy with the mark itself, I'm just unhappy because I hate to score low when all the people are getting high marks. Super ego I know.

Some more I don't think my answer (worth of 6 marks) is wrong lor. I think it's arguable and that our lecturer owes me a better explanation to it. After all, the question itself is misleading. She couldn't give me a good explanation. How can she simply ask me to accept reality??? I find it somewhat unfair. Some more she later comforted me by asking me to "do better in the finals" -.-'... I feel... so... tad cheated...

Some more mid-term takes 20% of the 100% total.

Some more I died in my second practical assessment.

Okay, at this point I believe someone might feel like smacking me for complaining so much. After all 41/50 is still considered as "good". And maybe to people, I should be satisfied enough because I already scored quite well for the other papers. But I am me and I have my own standards. So I don't think it's wrong for me to protest. I did study you know?

Anyway, I need to excuse myself for now. Slept late last night because of assignment, now I need some rest. Please don't call or sms me people. Let me R.I.P.