kiete yuku kako e no tobira
kizutsuitemo ii sore yori
chigau jibun wo mite mitai
A long day ended
and disappeared into the door of the past
It's fine if it hurts because more than that
I want to see a different me
can I try? why should I? togireta koe
kioku no hako ni nemuru omoi
you're always on my mind, so
"Can I try? Why should I?" the stopped voice
and feelings that are asleep in the box of memory
You're always on my mind, so
stand by me
sabitsuita sekai ni nani ga aru no?
show me stars again itsuka
demo mienai kirameki ga aru koto
kidzukaseta kureta kara
Stand by me
What are there in this rusting world?
Show me stars again someday
But the fact that stars that can't be seen do exist
you were the one who made me notice
Ah I am clearly being misunderstood. Definitely not a good thing but I don't want to give a damn to things like that. I don't want to blame myself for how people feel when it is not my fault. Sorry for being overconfident about this. I have nothing to say to people with no proper learning attitude. Honestly, people are so disappointing and it is so disheartening to know. And to think that I actually sacrificed time and energy for nothing. But don't worry, I'm not jumping so fast into conclusion. Yet.
Sometimes, I question myself for being at this place. I don't understand. I am very task-oriented while friends around me are all people oriented. My thoughts and feelings couldn't reach them very well. We are just... way too different. Both in the head and heart. I almost seem alien to them.
You know what, one of my ambitions is to become a lady boss one day and fire all people who are late for work and meetings. I never thought of that before coming to UTAR, if you understand what I mean. It's not me being inflexible, it's just that I see values in following the rules. But well, most of my friends here are great rule breakers. Well done really. And if I were to talk about responsibility... ... ... let us not let my frustration grow any deeper.
Moving on to the faces and personalities, I would say that UTAR is a major eye-opener for me. People scare me off, really. I dare not risk getting closer to people. Even in the first two weeks I got freaked out already. Sometimes, I even go as far as to wonder if the people are really there to study. (May I recommend career in performing arts??)
All that but still, good things happened. They make me smile whenever I think of them.
Due to past experiences, I tend to forget things very easily. There are things that I do not want to forget, but slowly and surely, will be forgotten.
This is the very least I can do to make myself remember.
It's about to end, isn't it?
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